pupamancy: (With your healing heart)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-07 06:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Arms draped over the railing, Monique watched her daughter play with her friend in the sand. It was turning colder in recent weeks, and the owners of the boardwalk had finally named one last bathing day for the fall. Despite the chill in the air, there had been quite the turnout. While most bathers had opted to dress like the summer had yet to leave, Monique had insisted on Violette bringing a jacket with her, and despite the amount of wet sand stuck to both her sleeves and her back, her cheeks were rosy with warmth and she looked happy to build sandcastles one last time before the beach closed until spring.

Monique hadn't bothered with a bathing suit or towel, preferring instead to watch her daughter and the rest of the beach crowd, chuckling to herself as older kids threw themselves unthinkingly into the cold ocean and shrieked before hurrying back to land.

"I'm not looking forward to that age," she said, indicating one gaggle of rowdy teens with the bob of her head.
pupamancy: (I don't claim to be perfect)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-07 07:49 pm (UTC)(link)
"We don't grow out of that, don't worry." Monique nudged him with her elbow, then leaned in and rested her head against his shoulder. It was rare for Ladon to be affectionate in public, but the combination of being the observers rather than the observed and the way he'd been distractedly staring off into the distance seemed to create some kind of exception in his thinking. She didn't mind.

"And no, we're not keeping her little. Audra's got that covered, anyhow." Monique had spent precious little time with the girl vampire who'd met the fate Violette had avoided, partially out of guilt and partially because she saw so much pain in the girl's eyes. Perhaps if she'd been a couple years younger, she'd had time to grow accustomed to being a child forever before she was old enough for the reality of it to hit her. Two years had passed, though, and while Violette was the same age Audra looked, she had yet to really accept that she'd never grow up.
pupamancy: (I'm a broken doll)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-07 09:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"You were just kidding around, I know."

She looked down, fiddling with the pearl bracelet she wore on her left wrist. One of the gifts Ladon had given her, along with the earrings she wore. No ring, though. Ladon was clueless about human culture often enough, but seemed to recognize the significance of rings. He said things without thinking sometimes, but so did she. This relationship had taken some work on both ends, and often she wondered how long it would last and how much was worth it.

She'd been anxious lately. The song of train whistles and bleating of ship horns had been a siren call as of late, and every road that led out of town beckoned. She did her best to keep her feet planted, but it was too easy sometimes, to imagine packing bags, hurrying her daughter off in the middle of the night. Disappearing entirely.

She only stopped following that path in her head when she got to what she'd tell him, if she'd tell him. She knew he'd let her go if she wanted, especially if he knew what she was running from. But for some reason she just couldn't will herself to tell him. Saying anything would shatter this little illusion they'd cultivated. She liked it too much to let it go.

Violette looked up from the sand sculpture she'd been working on and waved to them. Monique waved back.

"Do you have any meetings tonight?"
pupamancy: (Embrace my sadness look after me)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-12 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
"Violette's staying the night at her friend's house," she said. "They're leaving from the boardwalk together. I thought we could do something."

Ladon was busy often enough, and she did her best not to be demanding of his time. Still, it was nice to have a night where she didn't need to worry over Violette's dinner, whether she needed a bath, and if she was doing the work her tutor had assigned. She had a lot of time to make up for with her daughter, but a night off from being a mother here and there wasn't something she'd say no to.

Despite that, she hated being alone. She got nervous, watched the window and jumped at every sound outside her front door. It was so much easier when Ladon was about, filling the silence with conversation and making the threats that rattled around in the back of her head easier to ignore. Even when they didn't talk, or when they weren't intimate at all, just having someone else there was enough. She didn't love the way he made her clothes and hair smell like cigarettes and men's cologne, but she was beginning to find comfort in that smoky scent he carried into a room no matter how much aftershave he used. He always got embarrassed if he showed his lizard side through growls or that errant tail, but she found some relief in knowing she had a dragon around. Monsters at least gave the multitude of worse things in the world pause.
pupamancy: (And you're the puppeteer)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-13 05:31 am (UTC)(link)
"You're not my boss," she reminded him, though it was clear he was just giving her a hard time. She was serious about that much, though: he was not her boss. He might have owned the jazz club where she worked as a cigar girl, but her boss was Senecia, who ran the place on a more significant level. Ladon used the club as a front for a lot of his less legal business. Unless she started contributing to that half of his life, he wasn't her boss. And he'd made it clear he didn't want to get her involved.

"The one where the girls take their clothes off? You won't smoke out the whole cinema?" If he was going to tease her, she'd give him just as much back.
pupamancy: (And wipe away my fears)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-13 05:40 am (UTC)(link)
"Really."

She looked up at him, eyebrows raised and one hand propped on her hip. "And how many girls have you seen take their clothes off lately?"
pupamancy: (My heart is made of wood)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-13 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
"You'd better not. I know how to use a shotgun." He had first-hand experience of that. She'd nearly shot his head off when they first met-- it was really only his younger brother being there that kept her from pulling the trigger.

That was what she told herself, anyway.

"So, we see a flicker. Then what?"
pupamancy: (Though broken I am sweet)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-13 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
"And watch how much the owners can squirm and send us complimentary bottles of wine?" Any of the clubs in town would be aware of Ladon's presence, and while he'd never been caught doing enough to have formal charges brought up against him, there was still word of mouth that people went on. Especially the business owners. They knew about his connections to the criminal empire running in Nieve's shadows. They knew about Joe Nason and his sudden "disappearance" as well as the interest the police had taken in him as a suspect. Even with that line of questioning dropped and his behavior rarely publicly violent, Ladon had a reputation. It had its benefits, but also its drawbacks.

"Why don't we go somewhere more... us friendly? Hardy Limael's casino finished with the work he was having done, isn't it?"
pupamancy: (I've heard the Nightjar)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-18 06:44 am (UTC)(link)
"It's been two years now, things should be settled, shouldn't they?" Monique was aware that Hardy Limael ran on vampire time, and that meant two years was the bat of an eye. But surely that was enough time to deal with the aftermath of dethroning his sire and the social and political issues that had brought up. Even as a part of the magical community, she often felt as though the other members had a very different approach to time than she did. Ladon was included, it was almost as if he barely kept track of days versus weeks and years. She'd have to ask him about dragon lifespans at some point.

"So long as we don't head to the Apple. I know I'll lose you to work if you walk in that door and Senecia sees you."
pupamancy: (I am dancing in your light)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-25 06:24 pm (UTC)(link)
She smiled at that, then went up on her toes to peck him on the cheek. "Good. I'll go let Violette know we're leaving."

Then she slipped away, leaving him to smoke his cigarettes and half-watch the crowd on the beach. She clutched her purse to herself and hurried down the boardwalk towards the steps that led to the sandy shore, all the while scanning the people she passed by. If they made eye-contact, she smiled and ducked her head, doing her best to hide any glimpse of paranoia they might see in her dark eyes. It was hard enough to keep it hidden from Ladon, though lately he'd been giving her that sad, worried look when he didn't think she could see him. He knew she was hiding something, but the big goof didn't seem to know how to ask her what it was.

She'd just about crossed off every person there as a threat and convinced herself that she was just fooling herself when she felt a strange tingle up the back of her spine. She was being watched. There was a young man hanging about, alone and away from the teen group that was still causing a ruckus by the water. He was watching her from his blanket, but not in the way boys usually did when a pretty woman was walking their way. His gaze was intense, enough so that she felt like ice had suddenly formed in her stomach when she looked him in the eye. He glanced down almost immediately, just as she had before. She had a sinking feeling that he looked familiar, like a child she'd known once that had since grown up.

She stopped in her tracks at the steps and watched Violette playing with her friend. The boy didn't look in her daughter's direction, only down, then around the beach as if he were trying to spot someone himself. How long had he been watching her? Had he just found her? He couldn't see where she and Ladon had been from his angle, so perhaps he didn't know about Violette.

It was stupid, she knew it was. How would they have known she'd be here if they didn't follow her? If they were following her, they'd know she had a daughter. If this boy was even in any way related to them!

She felt a little dizzy. Anxiety, Aza had said. If she got too anxious this kind of thing tended to happen. Instead of heading down the stairs, she turned around. Violette would understand if she didn't say goodbye.

She couldn't get back to Ladon's side fast enough. "Let's go."
pupamancy: (That drips down from my eyes)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-25 07:01 pm (UTC)(link)
"She's having fun, I don't want to bother her," she lied. Granted Violette was at that age where when she was enjoying herself, the entire world could come and go and she wouldn't notice, but she wasn't so young as to be devastated by her mother leaving. Saying goodbye wouldn't ruin her good time, and Monique understood that Ladon knew that. But she hoped he'd go along with it anyway.

"I... think I need to go lay down for a little bit anyway. Take me home?"

Earlier in the year she'd blamed her condition on the heat. She didn't have an excuse anymore, just the vague hope that he would do as she asked and not pry. It wasn't right to keep him in the dark like this, she knew that. She'd have to tell him one day.

"Let's have some tea and relax for a while before we go out, okay?"
pupamancy: (It all seems so true last week)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-25 08:16 pm (UTC)(link)
"That's not..." Monique trailed off. She knew it was impolite to stare, but manners were the last thing on her mind. The boy who had been watching her was strolling down the boardwalk with a girl on his arm, smiling and chatting and acting nothing like a spy. In fact, she understood the moment she saw his date. The girl was probably sixteen at the oldest with dark hair clipped in a bow and freckles all over her pretty face.

"She's wearing my dress," she said. Of course. There had been no threat, no danger, the boy had just mistaken her for his girlfriend when he'd seen the same pattern of pink flowers headed down the stairs, and then had been embarrassed to be looking at another woman. Maybe she harped on him just like Monique did on Ladon.

Monique felt a wave of relief, followed abruptly by the bitter aftertaste of humiliation. She was such an idiot. Why had she been so upset?

"Actually. I really should tell Vi goodbye. She'll get mad at me if I don't, won't she?"
pupamancy: (Piece me all together)

[personal profile] pupamancy 2014-03-25 08:34 pm (UTC)(link)
"I... Sorry." Ladon's patience with her was one of the reasons she'd been willing to stay in this relationship. His reputation, his work, all his other flaws, she could forgive those. He never seemed to get angry with her about the way she acted and that was something she appreciated. Every other relationship had broken down quickly thanks to her inability to explain her actions. Her ex-husband had called her thoughtless, among other things, and that had always stuck with her.

It was less that she didn't think, and more that sometimes she couldn't stop thinking.

Ladon's arm around her was a comfort, and though the dizziness had passed and she didn't need the extra support, she took it anyway. She took what she could, because she never knew when she'd eventually lose it all.

The two of them headed down the boardwalk and towards the beach, and Monique focused on her daughter and the sand castle she'd made rather than the many sets of eyes who might or might not be watching her.